Rainy day blues

There was a heavy downpour just now. It's the wet season again. Season of heavy rain, strong wind and wet shoes. I like year end. The weather is cooling and everyone is in a relax and happy kinda mood. Maybe because Christmas is coming. I like Christmas and the spirit of giving. Everyone will be choosing gifts for their loved ones and exchanging presents with one another. It's a very warm kinda feeling.

I haven't been sleeping well for the past week. So much things are going through my thoughts right now and I need to think a lot recently. Sometimes I get dreams relating to my thoughts and at times I find myself waking up in the middle of the night and then have a hard time falling back asleep again. I hate this phase where I have to make think through my alternatives and make decisions. Somehow decisions made before had made a different turnout and I need to evaluate them again. It was not intended to be this way but all the same I need to be clear what I wanna do this time round. This is another chance for me to make changes in the way I want. Maybe it's a good thing afterall.

I saw a staff's blog and am very upset on what she has wrote in her blog. Things usually don't turn out as per what we expect but shifting blame to others doesn't seem to make one right. Anyway I've decided not to say anything about this and let the issue slowly fade away. Managing people are so hard. Social relationships are most complex and difficult to handle. Others will take advantage of you if you are too nice and if you are too harsh, everyone talks behind your back and backstab you. Sigh. HUMAN!!

I've also just read Jo's blog on Shiyr's update. Seems like she's going to be quite alright altho the road to recovery might be a long one. Her elder son seemed to be most affected seeing how the little sister cried and screamed in pain during the ordeal. Poor little guy. Hope the counsellor can help him to walk through this phase.

Annie's uncle passed away last night. She cried hard and is terribly upset. Her uncle was only 49 with 2 bright sons. It was such a pity. He was so young and his kids are so young. Now the wife has to bear the responsibility of bringing up the 2 kids single-handedly. There was no symptoms before hand and her uncle was healthy just seconds before he fell and hit his head. He was gone just like that. Condolences to her and hope she can overcome her grief soon. Everytime I hear of cases like that, I remind myself to appreciate and love the people around me when I can. You'll never know when tragedy strike. Better to tell them you love them now, than to do it when they are gone. Treasure your loved ones now.