Dizzy spells, drained of energy, morning sickness, emotional, temperamental etc..These signs describe me perfectly recently. It happened during the CNY period, when I realised I was pregnant for the 3rd time. Surprise surprise! It certainly took me by surprise and immediately I decided that I wasn't ready for this baby. We hadn't really planned to have another one, not to mention Ee is barely 17months old. Taking care of both kids plus the housework and job and pregnancy was not something in my mind at all. Hubby took it better than I did. All I could do was cry and cry, telling him I was scared of this commitment and I'm not sure if I can cope with what was happening. Even till now, I have not fully accepted the fact that I am pregnant and going to have another baby soon. Sigh...things really took a big twist this time!
Anyway for the past few weeks, I didn't have the energy to do any work, just focusing on resting at home. Thankfully my boss is understanding and allows me to work from home till we get a replacement for me. The first 2 weeks was horrible. Everything horrible sets in and my whole world turned upside down. All I can do is stay in bed with minimal movement. Every movement I make will cause me to head straight to the toilet. I couldn't hold any food but was hungry all the time. Pre-natal depression set in and I was emotional and crying all the time, telling hubby I can't go through this all over again. I guess saying I wasn't prepared for the baby was a total understatement...I felt I was totally rejected the baby.
Now I am feeling much better. The EDD is still not set as the time the baby was conceived was not determined yet. So will have to wait for next checkup to confirm that. I hope things will slowly get better so I can be back to normal again for my kids. Luckily the kids are not too demanding now and hubby has been extremely supportive to this pregnancy and contributing a lot more than he used to. Praying hard for things to get normal soon.
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