The year of 2007 is finally gone and the year of 2008 has arrived. Time seems to fly pass and in a wink, it's already into the 2nd week of year 2008. Sadly to say, the end of 2007 is not a good time for us, with most of the family members down sick with one thing or another. I hope this year 2008 will be good for us.

After 12 weeks of rest, I finally gone back to work. I feel sad, as well as excited to be back at work. Sad to have to leave the kids in the care of the helper and my mum, but excited to at least get some personal time and sanity back during work hours as I won't be listening to the screams and wails of my 3 kids at home. For a long time, I have been contemplating to quit my job once the 12 weeks is up and then shift my focus back home to take care of the 3 kids. However said that, we are both quite worried about the finances at home and whether a single income is able to let us sustain for a family of 6 now. My feelings are quite mixed, wanting to take the plunge and just stay home for a year to watch my kids grow up and guide them, but at the same time afraid to take the step and having to lay the burden on my poor hubby to take care of the family needs (in monetary terms).

Yesterday was my first day back at work. Nothing seemed to have changed in the office, things are still slow and sales not recovered. I met up with my new colleague who has been here for 2.5 months, and clicked with her immediately. It feels good to have someone to talk to finally in the office and not facing only the 4 white walls here. We have almost the same thoughts about certain things happening and definitely reinforced my thoughts to stay home rather than work. The pressure is on and expectations are running high but I seriously doubt we can achieve anything with what is going on there. Sigh unfortunately also, we will be shifting office to a more inconvenient place (for me) and that will means if I stay on here, I'll have to spend more time on commuting to and from work and it's getting on my nerves these days.

On the home side, yesterday was not a bad first day for the kids and my mum managing without me. Hao and Ee are pretty ok, except missing me and Hao telling me to stay home and not go to work anymore LOL Min cried here and there but still looks pretty sane and normal when I got home last evening :P Mum is tired out but still ok. I guess they can still function pretty sanely and orderly without me but I just feel lost somehow that I wasn't there to share their day and there was not much time for me to enjoy with the kids. Sigh this is really the dilemma of a full time working mother.