Little thoughts here and there...

It'd been an eventful week for our family. As we finally set ourselves back to our routines and get life going as usual, I took some time to recollect my thoughts when I had some time alone to sit down and think.

Firstly, Ee is recovering better than I expected. After he came back from the hospital, I hadn't any words of complain from him. There wasn't any pain or uncomfort, only some inconvenience as we had imposed some (or many to him) restrictions for his playtime. No going near of Min (showing serious signs of violence to Ee), no playing of hitting games, no running, no jumping up and down etc. In short, we'd rather he do his coloring or sitting on the sofa and watching TV :P Maybe I am getting a little protective here, but boys will be boys, they can be rather dangerous when playing in a group of 3! I am just crossing my fingers that his stitches will be nicely intact till the professional plastic surgeon removes it on Monday afternoon. I wouldn't want to risk having him undergo another horrible incident again!

Since Ee's accident, I've had a lot of well wishers leaving me messages, as well as calls and smses from friends and relatives. I'm thankful for all their prayers and words of comfort, which had given me much strength and support that I needed now to help Ee recover. Of all, the sweetest thing that I've heard was from a close friend of hubby. He told us that Ee eludes a special kind of charm and charisma that my other kids doesn't have. Ee is very aloof and doesn't warm up fast with strangers. However, just a look at him makes you want to know him better and talk to him. You'll get fascinated at just looking at the way he moves and talks and plays without even realising it. This special charms makes him very likeable even when he's not doing anything. We thought it was quite true and I was very touched by what he said, and was thankful to him. With just one little thought that he shares with us, it consoled me very much and made me felt more relieved than a thousand words of comfort. Very simply put, he had given me much confidence to see the entire thing in a more positive light. I hope the people who interacts with Ee will see him in an entirely different light, just like how our friend could.

Some friends call me supermom, some told me I made too many sacrifices for my kids and I have lost myself in the process. I just wanna say that I had not intentionally wanted to be a supermom, or compete with other moms in my social circle. It is indeed a big sacrifice for me to be with my 3 kids 24/7 with no personal time. I had wished for time alone for retail therapy, sleep or even just to sit down and watch the tv in peace, but it's all a luxury to me. There's always the homework to revise with one, or to play with the other, or washing their dirty laundry or utensils, or preparing meals or playing games with them. The drive which kept me going was simply just to provide the best I can to my kids. Life is short, some people just want to spend their time doing the things they like. For me, my wish is to leave my greatest love to my kids. When it comes to the day when I had to leave the world, I wish that I had given my best to them and they can remember me for what I did for them. Remembering how mummy used to cook and clean for them, play with them and walk them to school, even the car rides I had with them, the places I visited with them and even the time we spent together at night just lying down on the bed going to sleep. With that, I won't have any regrets in life. So far I think I've done my best and will keep doing so till I don't have the energy to do so anymore, or when they find their love ones to share their life with. It isn't too much for a mother to do right?