Back to Normal ~ LOL

Hubby is back from his business trip, and life is back to normal ~ I now have more things to pick up and clean and one more person to look after. Sigh...maybe others will think now that my hubby is back, I should have an additional pair of hands to help around the house. Well, they are wrong! The house needs more cleaning and there are more things lying around to be picked up as he do not put things back to original place after he uses them! In a way, I feel more relaxed when he's not around as I will not expect him to help out and I know how to organise my work, but when he's around, somehow I expect him to helpout around the house (or at least with the kids) a little, but NO. He'll be sleeping in late or till the sounds of screaming kids wakes him, he'll be taking his own sweet time to do things and our activities will revolve around his timings. In a way I feel more frustrated because I expect him to help out but he doesn't and I'll start to resent and ask myself why he can take me for granted and why I always have to be the one who make the sacrifices and doing all the work in the house. Sigh...I end up always telling myself I am the one pampering him since I never scream at him because deep down I know that he won't change and also he will say he's tired etc. My in laws are constantly reminding me that my hubby is tired from his work and business trips and I should let him rest and not let the kids bother him etc but I wonder who is to consider my feelings then? I am not a robot or a maid or worse, a slave. I need the attention and pampering and help too. If it's not my hubby doing that, then who else would? Ok time to stop ranting and move my butt to wash those dirty dishes in the sink....