Hanging in there..

I've been missing online for a week now. Since last weekend, I've been trying hard to calm myself down and resettle my mood as well as deal with my depressing self. I'm glad to say that I'm feeling a little better and after a busy week again, I decided to bake myself some chocolate chips cookies this morning and sinfully ate almost 1/4 of them :P I've also taken any free time available to sit down and think what really made me happy and how I can pamper myself with the little time and money. It suddenly strike me that I don't know what I should do. For so many years, it's either been the kids or hubby or my responsibilities. I've never gotten myself any hobbies or thought of what I want to do or bought anything to pamper myself. There just wasn't any time for any of that for myself and now that I want to start thinking for myself, I realise that there's no me anymore. It felt that I have to start 'rebuilding' myself again and build my own identity again. I am not sure if that's good or bad but at least realising that is a good start right? Now I just need to find myself and decide for myself what I want to get out of this....Meanwhile, I'll just hang in there!