Another 1 hour and is officially 2007. At the last night of 2006, I spend time after dinner at a friend's grandma's funeral wake and then home with a sick Hao. He developed a fever just after we left home shortly for the wake. He called whining about not having his toy dog with him and then later my mum called to say he's feverish. Our friends laughed at me for not having any luck staying out without the kids. He must be thinking of me too much and fell sick from it, they laughed. Hubby say must the ice cream that he took today after his swimming lessons...or the little cut in his finger...or simply the fact that we were not home with him...Sigh...must resign to my fate..

Now both kids are asleep. Hao's fever have gone down a little, after he vomitted his dinner out. Now I am crossing fingers that it might be the food he ate, or just a bout of common cold, and not viral flu or fever which can be more complicated. Sigh..here's to a long night of measuring temperature for Hao and efforts to wean Ee off night feeds...What a way to end 2006.

Rain, rain, rain and more rain..it has been raining since eternity. We've hit the most number of rainy days and the highest volume of rainwater in December since I've ever known. Cooling weather is a good thing, but too much of it starts to irritate most of us. Its so inconvenient and virtually everyday we are trapped either in the office, at home or shopping centre. We can hardly see the sun nowadays as most of the time there'll be the cloudy skies even when it's not raining. I can finally understand why the foreigners love the sun so much after staying in the cold countries for so long...I'm beginning to feel the same way too!!

It's been a hectic 2 weeks. I've been wanting to come in and update my blog but the sudden earthquake in Taiwan on Tuesday disrupted the internet services here and I wasn't able to do that from the office.

Christmas came and went by. I still can't believe that it happened so fast. I guess time really flies...Hao was excited about Christmas ever since we put up the Christmas trees and not to mention the presents under the tree. He kept asking when Christmas was coming and when he can open all the presents for him and Ee. Ee is too young to understand what is going on, but he's still influenced by Hao's excitement over Christmas.

On saturday, 2 days before Christmas, we brought the kids to Orchard road for lunch and stopped by Paragon ToysRus. It was very crowded but hubby decided that Christmas wouldn't be complete without a walk along Orchard to see the lightings and rubbing shoulders with the crowd. Took some pics, had lunch at Spaggedies and headed back home before we get completely swallowed by the horrible crowd there.

Hao opened his first Christmas present this year and was told the other presents had to wait till Monday morning, which is Christmas. He was so excited when he tore away the first present and saw it was the CARS Leapster Cartridge that I've got for him in the US. He spent a good 2 hours on the game set till he had to go to bed, but not before placing the game set next to him in bed.

On Christmas morning, I was awakened by Hao who jumps around excitedly declaring it was Christmas Day and he could open all the presents! Without refreshing ourselves, all of us sat beside the Christmas tree and started tearing away all the wrappers. As expected most of Hao's presents are Thomas train related stuff, while Ee got only a book and a dancing mat from hubby. Ee seemed more interested in Hao's toys than his own, but he still had a good time dancing on the mat.

Now that Christmas is over, New Year is just around the corner. The year of 2006 has come to an end and the new year 2007 is just a few days away. Soon the Chinese New Year will come and then time will be flying off again, with the kids growing up and us aging...I wonder where I'll be the same time next year. Hopefully still around my family and enjoying my time looking back the the wonderful year of 2007.

Its seemed to be raining forever...today is DAY 3 of rain. Wonder when the sun will come out. I'll applause to such nice cooling and lazy weather IF I am at home right now, but it's no joke to be in the rain trying to drop off Ee at my mum's place, then off to the childcare centre to drop Hao, and then rush off to my workplace and finally hubby to his workplace. I've been coming in late for the past few days. Partly I am blaming the rain for the bad traffic, and the other part, well...goes to my bed for being so comfortable in this rainy season. Hey, it's not just me. The kids (and hubby too) have been waking up late these days. Maybe we should all stay home and hibernate...

Hao picked up a new skill lately - memorizing my cellphone number. His new hobby now is to call me on my cellphone after school. The first day (last friday) he acquired his new skill, he called me 4 times in total. Yesterday (Monday), he called me twice, which wasn't too bad. He's still in school now. I bet I'll get a call from him later telling me he's back from school and asked if I have any homework for him today. Well, the good thing is the next time he gets lost, he can actually have someone call me *grin*.

There's too much peace now in the office that's it's becoming a little scary. Erin left on Wednesday. She found another job which might be more suitable for her right now at this stage as she needed more time for her studies and a less stressful job. Wish her all the best from now onwards.

This week has been pretty routine. Nothing happened out of the ordinary and everyday has been work and work and more work. The management is pretty happy at the turn of direction for the company and it's pretty exciting with all the things happening in the office. Anyway I've pretty much made up my mind to leave the company sometime next quarter and have already communicated to my boss. Told him am staying home for a while and focus on my family for a change. Not sure if this is the right move for me, but I guess there will never be a better time than now. The truth is I am pretty scared but excited at the same time with my decision. I can't wait to spend more time with the kids, but am scared about finances and how I can cope as a stay at home mum. Nevetheless, will take one step at a time and see how. Hope everything turns out well.

Xmas is around the corner. I can't believe the year of 2006 is going to pass soon. I wonder how 2007 is going to be for me. Certainly year 2006 has been a roller coaster year for me with lotsa ups and downs. I only wish for stability and good fortune for my family for the new year..

Ah...Peace at last!! There's peace at last in the office. I am not being mean, but I'm just getting tired of having to manage these people who does not appreciate good intentions but always giving bad comments to others. Sometimes we should all reflect upon ourselves and think whether you are a good person in the first place. Afterall, what goes round will come round.

Finally received Nic's package from US. So excited when I got it last night. Hao is simply excited about the books that I got for him. Plenty of reading for him to do! Of course, I kept some of the stuff for xmas presents and I'm sure he's very excited as he's asking when is xmas coming and when he can unwrap all his presents! Ee is still too young to understand and I think he also can't be bothered with toys anyway. He's a weird little fellow.

Tonight is my 2nd appointment with the dentist to finish off my root canal. I am so thankful that it hasn't been giving me any problem for the past few days. I have to get past this phobia of visiting the dentist. Who knows what would had happened if I didn't go last thurs? Maybe I'll still be in pain and denial and I'll scared the shit out of the kids and hubby with my bad temper due to the toothache. That'll be so disastrous!

The truth is out...after hours of pain, I finally mustered the courage to visit the dentist. Checked out a few places and battled with myself whether I should wait a while more or do it tonight. Finally sis convinced me to go asap. As I waited for the time to pass in the office and then took the train to the location, my heart pounded faster and faster, my palms became sweaty and I start to develop butterfly knots in my stomach.

I walked into the clinic and gave my details to the receptionist. She ushered me into the dentist chair, with the gentle dentist who filled me in with the details after checking the condition, and gave me the bad news. Either to extract or have a root canal. Damn, it was my worse nightmare come through. I think I am more afraid of the dentist than freddy. Seems like there was no choice but to go ahead with the root canal.

After 30 mins I emerged from the clinic with a big hole in my pocket but with the hole in teeth filled with medicine and fillings. Had made another appointment to go back for review on Tuesday night. Hopefully everything goes well. Sigh. I've learnt my lesson. Won't repeat my mistake again. This is a heavy price to pay for my denial. I've just gotta overcome my phobia of going to a dentist...

On Sunday, Hao was watching his favourite Kim Possible cartoon and I was doing some household chores near him when he asked me a question. He asked "Mummy, does most of the people have a mummy like Kim Possible's?" Not knowing what he meant at that point, I just replied him "Yar I think so..". He thought for a while and told me in a serious tone "Mummy I don't think I want a Mummy like Kim Possible's Mummy." I asked him why. He replied "Because I want you as my mummy and no one else!". I look at his face and kept quiet. I was so touched I couldn't say anything at all. He just continued to watch his cartoon while I was relishing what he just told me. I thought it was the best thing a child could say to a mother. All my weariness and tiredness just disappeared and I so feel like hugging him and never let go. The truth is, my baby has grown up. From a tiny weeny 6.7 pounds baby to a 14kg 4 year boy now. Over the years he has grown so much and there's nothing we can stop it. Many times I wished he was little again and still dependent to me to help him in everything. Now, I am the one who's dependent on him, not wanting to let go of him and wished he'll not grow up so fast. As I look at Ee now who's barely 14 months old, I just wished time will go slower. I want to have all the time in the world to spend with my little men and hold tight against and never have to let go..

Today is a beautiful cloudy and windy saturday. Hubby promised Hao that we'll go to the beach today. When we woke up early morning, it was rather cloudy and dark. Not wanting to disappoint Hao, we rushed to get everyone ready as left for the beach. However, just a we step out of the house into the car, it started drizzling. We had no choice but to detour to McDonalds for breakfast while we waited for the drizzle to stop. Luckily after we finished our breakfast, it seemed like the sky was going to be clear for a while. As we headed towards the beach, there was still a couple of rain droplets but it didn't dampen our moods. True enough the rain totally stopped and it was rather breezy at the beach with little crowd. The kids enjoyed themselves thoroughly, especially Ee who is being exposed for the first time to the sand and water. We've brought him there couple of times but never really let him play on the beach. He wasn't afraid of it and was soon kicking and scooping the sand and learning what Hao and hubby was doing. He even had a dip into the water (only the feet as we didn't bring extra clothings) and was looking forward to more fun!

We adjourned back home for wash up near lunchtime and headed down to PastaMania at Tampines Mall for lunch. We also caught a show there similar to power ranges character, which Hao totally enjoyed. We were quite surprised that it wasn't really crowded for a Saturday afternoon. The kids had some time at the playground too.

I think I totally enjoyed ourselves today and now the kids are sleeping soundly..

This week has been rather hectic and stressful. I've never had to be so partial to a person before. Well, I had no choice right? I had to put the company's interest before myself and tell myself what I did was the best for the company without going against my conscience. Afterall, she had it coming too. I hate the job of being a bad person in the office, but someone has to do it.

Enough of stress from office. Aunt Flo finally checked on me on Friday. That's an irregularity of 6 weeks of no Flo. I was quite sure I'm gonna miss it till my milk supply dropped tremendously and had mood swings. All signs of PMS plus the fatique and sleepiness. Had to reschedule my breast checkup due to all these. Don't wanna pay unnecessary money for nothing. At least have to wait till everything is in order and more regular. If not, Dr Ng won't be able to detect anything too.