Things are slightly better this week. Very minimal morning sickness and finally feeling a bout of energy back to my body. Managed to catch up with work and starting to follow up with some cases on hand. Time used more effectively rather than lying in bed all day moaning about the nausea and weak body.

Mum is not around this morning so I am going to be managing both kids on my own. Tried to sleep in later this morning but Ee woke up at 8 plus so I had to drag myself out of bed for breakfast and bath. Managed to check some work email and send some emails while he's playing beside me at this moment. Later will have to fetch Hao from school together with Ee and get some lunch before heading back to mum's place as she'll be back in the afternoon after finishing her stuff. Sounds like a boring and tiring day for me ahead!

Finally going to maid agencies tomorrow afternoon as hubby has took half day leave. I'll be heading into the office for some work handover, and then meeting hubby after lunch to visit the agencies. Hopefully we can settle the maid stuff tomorrow and not drag it further.

This weekend we'll be house viewing. A property agent friend has arranged some house for us to view. It's going to be a busy busy period going forward with so much activities going on. Not sure if all these changes are for the better or worse. Well, we can't turn back now and expect things to be as per normal. Changes around here are definitely required (it comes with a price of course!!) and I'm rather worried about how we are going to cope financially. Things will be tougher when I completely stop work in months to come. I'm looking at at least stopping work for the next 1 or 2 years till the baby is older. Hopefully I can get some part time work to get myself going and earn some extra income, but most of the financial burden is going to be loaded on hubby. Thankfully his job is still stable now, but we can't always be too sure about it.

Sigh can only take one step at a time now and cross our fingers hoping everything will turn out well...

An Unexpected New Journey

Dizzy spells, drained of energy, morning sickness, emotional, temperamental etc..These signs describe me perfectly recently. It happened during the CNY period, when I realised I was pregnant for the 3rd time. Surprise surprise! It certainly took me by surprise and immediately I decided that I wasn't ready for this baby. We hadn't really planned to have another one, not to mention Ee is barely 17months old. Taking care of both kids plus the housework and job and pregnancy was not something in my mind at all. Hubby took it better than I did. All I could do was cry and cry, telling him I was scared of this commitment and I'm not sure if I can cope with what was happening. Even till now, I have not fully accepted the fact that I am pregnant and going to have another baby soon. Sigh...things really took a big twist this time!

Anyway for the past few weeks, I didn't have the energy to do any work, just focusing on resting at home. Thankfully my boss is understanding and allows me to work from home till we get a replacement for me. The first 2 weeks was horrible. Everything horrible sets in and my whole world turned upside down. All I can do is stay in bed with minimal movement. Every movement I make will cause me to head straight to the toilet. I couldn't hold any food but was hungry all the time. Pre-natal depression set in and I was emotional and crying all the time, telling hubby I can't go through this all over again. I guess saying I wasn't prepared for the baby was a total understatement...I felt I was totally rejected the baby.

Now I am feeling much better. The EDD is still not set as the time the baby was conceived was not determined yet. So will have to wait for next checkup to confirm that. I hope things will slowly get better so I can be back to normal again for my kids. Luckily the kids are not too demanding now and hubby has been extremely supportive to this pregnancy and contributing a lot more than he used to. Praying hard for things to get normal soon.

Things have been rather confusing lately...I'm not sure how to put it now but since things have been confirmed, decisions have to be made soon.

Last weekend was a fantastic weekend for us. We brought the kids to the Zoo. It was Ee's first time and he enjoyed looking at the animals very much. We all had a great time there. After that we proceeded to the Ritz Carlton for one night stay, complimentary of my sis in law, Nicole. Coincidentally, there was the lunar new year fireworks that night and we had a great view of that from our hotel room. It was an awesome sight for us and the kids were totally speechless to see the fireworks so near!

Sunday we went back to the room again and saw another round of fireworks after dinner with hubby's family. Hao and Ee was just enjoying themselves in the tub when the fireworks started and it is not hard to imagine both of them stunned in the bathtub looking at the fireworks.