My cold has been bugging me for almost a week now. It is highly suspicious that I got my cold from Hao, who was sick 2 weeks ago. Last thursday, Ee caught a bit of my virus and lost his voice. Thank god other than his voice, he was pretty much ok and still the bubbly little fellow tailing behind Hao everyday :) Saturday night, Min came down with the flu AGAIN for the 2nd time. Sigh...I thought he'll be lucky to avoid being infected this time round, but nevetheless his little body is still not very immuned to the viruses going around, especially at this time of the year when almost every other person I meet is down with something!

Poor min had to see the PD yesterday after 2 days of sleepless nights as his nose was blocked and he couldn't breathe very well during his sleep. I had to carrying him while he was sleeping so he was more comfortable and thus causing my sleepless nights too *sob*....Rushed back from work last evening and had my brother drive me to the PD and fed him the medicines prescribed and after that he slept a little better. Crossing my fingers that he'll be well soon!

Hubby has been travelling a lot lately. He went to Bangkok for the whole of last week and just today he travelled up to KL again for some management meeting and probably early next week he'll need to travel to Jarkata for another conference. I think by the time he's back, it should be almost CNY already! Busy year of 2008 for him with big sales number to hit. All I can do is to manage the household for him and make sure the family is being well taken care of while he's busy working his butt off for the company (& family of course!). Hope things will go smoothly for us this year!!

Today is a black day for me...it seems like I got out from the wrong side of the bed. First my day started with a bad migraine and lack of sleep. I feel groggy from the migraine since morning and then when I was at the lift to my office, some idiots literally walked into me and stepping on my toes! I guess they were chatting and didn't realise I was standing there waiting for the lift and walked just right into me! Hope unlucky can I be right? Anyway after I got into the office, I realised that my PC has connection problems to the printer and I couldn't print the stuff I needed to do for the whole morning. Had to beg someone to troubleshoot for me and finally got it running about 10am. Just when I thought my day was starting to get back to normal, hubby sms me from bangkok to inform me that our friend's 5 month old son passed away this morning....It was shocking and sad for me. The baby was born prematured and lungs failed to work. After a 5 months struggle, he finally gave up. It must be really tormenting for the parents, who was so full of hope for the past months and looking forward to bringing the baby home one day. I cannot think of anything to say right now...

The year of 2007 is finally gone and the year of 2008 has arrived. Time seems to fly pass and in a wink, it's already into the 2nd week of year 2008. Sadly to say, the end of 2007 is not a good time for us, with most of the family members down sick with one thing or another. I hope this year 2008 will be good for us.

After 12 weeks of rest, I finally gone back to work. I feel sad, as well as excited to be back at work. Sad to have to leave the kids in the care of the helper and my mum, but excited to at least get some personal time and sanity back during work hours as I won't be listening to the screams and wails of my 3 kids at home. For a long time, I have been contemplating to quit my job once the 12 weeks is up and then shift my focus back home to take care of the 3 kids. However said that, we are both quite worried about the finances at home and whether a single income is able to let us sustain for a family of 6 now. My feelings are quite mixed, wanting to take the plunge and just stay home for a year to watch my kids grow up and guide them, but at the same time afraid to take the step and having to lay the burden on my poor hubby to take care of the family needs (in monetary terms).

Yesterday was my first day back at work. Nothing seemed to have changed in the office, things are still slow and sales not recovered. I met up with my new colleague who has been here for 2.5 months, and clicked with her immediately. It feels good to have someone to talk to finally in the office and not facing only the 4 white walls here. We have almost the same thoughts about certain things happening and definitely reinforced my thoughts to stay home rather than work. The pressure is on and expectations are running high but I seriously doubt we can achieve anything with what is going on there. Sigh unfortunately also, we will be shifting office to a more inconvenient place (for me) and that will means if I stay on here, I'll have to spend more time on commuting to and from work and it's getting on my nerves these days.

On the home side, yesterday was not a bad first day for the kids and my mum managing without me. Hao and Ee are pretty ok, except missing me and Hao telling me to stay home and not go to work anymore LOL Min cried here and there but still looks pretty sane and normal when I got home last evening :P Mum is tired out but still ok. I guess they can still function pretty sanely and orderly without me but I just feel lost somehow that I wasn't there to share their day and there was not much time for me to enjoy with the kids. Sigh this is really the dilemma of a full time working mother.